With sun in her eyes

Thursday, November 29, 2007

up and down.. up and down...
emotion roller coaster i will say..

Mandai Crematorium tmr.. another crying session..
our last goodbye to Jeremy...

thanks to those who stood by...
loves~

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i hate crying in the public... ruining the make up is one thing..
ruining my "strong" image in front of the other is the shit..
haha and so much for trying to portray a strong image..
just another wussy who cry behind close door...

i havent been a good girl.. im reverting to before.. which of cos is BAD BAD BAD...
*breathe in breathe out.. donte get stress get you jess..
i need to talk to ziwei.. i need to talk to her again... the last time i pour out to her was when i wanted to _ but obviously i've failed and the stress is fucking making the road even more bumpy and far.... when i put on weight, i have period and im having period now.. thus i put on weight.. mommy will be overjoy if i told her that im having my menses..

and speaking of mommy, i think im really a horrible daughter.. not that i donte love her.. i love her so so much that it pains me everytime i look back to what she had put me thru. it doesnt make sense.. the more i see her, the more i feel the pain and the more i pull away from her... and now, the only reason why im contacting her is because money is concern.. but i do love u mom, i rlly do=(

posted by Jessamine @ 1:34 AM

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