| Sunday, June 29, 2008 |
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doing it the cold turkey way.
im cold turkey-ing myself from the nightlife.
tired of waking up to vivid memory. time to start focusing on fyp and school(yeah right!).
BUT WAIT FOR ME PARTY PPL! i will be back in a month or so!
definitely in time for the nation countdown! |
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| Saturday, June 28, 2008 |
| What hold you back? |
I have a lot of flaws. I can be very stubborn. I get ahead of myself. I have trouble making up my mind, sometimes. I back down, occasionally, when I shouldnt (Im a Libra. I like to keep the peace). I had like to think that I know whats worth fighting for and whats not.
This morning, over breakfast, Im thinking about my limitations.. the things about myself that get in my own way. I can be insecure, but you had never guess that Not in person. Im good at faking it. There are times when I just donte know what I want. I get too caught up in other people, and other people's feelings, to recognize which one is mine. Thats not always good.
I realized, lately, that there are a lot of things I am afraid of. And either you push through that fear or it holds you back. I know what I have to do, its just a matter of doing it. Of being braver than I really am. Of pushing when it would be easier not to. The easy way? Its never the way you want to go. And its not usually the way I go, either.
Ive got some growing up to do. Ive got to get over myself, in a way. In order to make a change, you have to decide to do it. Not just talk about it. So, here's to that first step. May this lead to many more... |
| posted by Jessamine @ 2:25 AM |
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| Monday, June 23, 2008 |
| With love and prayers |
"I need some distraction oh beautiful release ,
Memories seep from my veins ,
They may be empty and weightless and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight ."
restinpeace.
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| posted by Jessamine @ 12:47 AM |
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| Saturday, June 21, 2008 |
| The death of a loved one is a difficult time |
"It's only words,
and words are all I have to take your ache away."
What I am feeling right now is hard to put into words. I was shocked when Mom called to tell me the news of uncle's death. the sudden illness he suffered brought an end to this wonderful man. Words really cannot express how sad I feel. My heart is filled with sympathy on the loss of my beloved uncle. Uncle was such a colorful and fun loving man and very devoted to his beautiful family. he loved being surrounded by his family. I know the source of pride they were to him.
It seems like yesterday that I was five years old and living at his house. I will never forget how much he loved drinking beer. He would sneaked out of the house bringing me along, for beer. and he would order the lamb chop for me.
I know how much im going to miss him. and chinese new year is just going to be so different without him.
~With Heartfelt Condolences.
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| posted by Jessamine @ 6:14 PM |
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| Thursday, June 19, 2008 |
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| Russia and Greece better win. |
| posted by Jessamine @ 1:29 AM |
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| Saturday, June 14, 2008 |
| shiny-happy fits of rage |
so things went quite well ystd. by "well," I mean "varying between terrible and amazing."
1. woke up to my alarm clock. 9:00 is not exactly my choice time to wake up during the vacation, but I needed to wake up early anyway. so I still laid in bed until like 9.30, but then got up to do stuff and headed to school for fyp.
2. mom's birthday
1. brought her for dinner
2. told her that i need to leave early but instead i went to buy a cake for her=))
3. the people who agreed on going to zouk enthusiastically decided not to go, at the very last min. what a disappointment.
4. then it was zouk. had an awesome time, ton of drinks. sean was drunk and he was really funny. some girls on the dancefloor were behaving like whores and we agreed that the girls must have lots of practice or something.
5. after zouk, euphrium drove us for mac breakfast. then sent jeff and i home.
6. and oh! i just realized that i lost my ezlink. thank god i brought my ezlink instead of my identification card. so i guess its a 不幸中的大幸? |
| posted by Jessamine @ 9:38 PM |
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| Sunday, June 8, 2008 |
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James says:
gtg! sleepy..
hey btw you can actually u can try something haha
eat an apple in front of the mirror at midnight
-jesSAMine Blessed are the hearts that can bend. says:
eee i donte wan!!!
James says:
then u can see ur husband
-jesSAMine Blessed are the hearts that can bend. says:
no way! thats so creepy and scary..
James says:
your future husband
-jesSAMine Blessed are the hearts that can bend. says:
btw its not eat apple la!
James says:
try la
-jesSAMine Blessed are the hearts that can bend. says:
its peel apple not eat apple.
James says:
lol
is it?
-jesSAMine Blessed are the hearts that can bend. says:
anyhow only!
otherwise why not eat apple pie?
James says:
maybe eat will be faster?
-jesSAMine Blessed are the hearts that can bend. says:
hahhahahaha
James says:
u try la
u will see another u eating apple pie too
:)
k gd night!
haha, so funny.
i realised that my 3/4 of my friendster comment are about partying and thats not too good. some actually refer me as jess the party girl. tsk tsk. not a good sign isnt it?
so this time jy is seriously trying to cut down on partying because of *er hem and thats really sweet. which also imply that i will have someone to cut down on partying with me=)
so jy, i support your stand!!! hahah..
mom's bdae is getting near. and im sooooo budget you know. ok not quite if i donte club next week. hahaa.. nvm , i will save even harder next week so as to bring her out for a sumptious dinner next week=) well i donte see her much thus need to even more make it up to her. ok last but not least althou i donte see you much, donte call you much but i do love you. always and forever.
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| posted by Jessamine @ 3:42 AM |
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| Saturday, June 7, 2008 |
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ok so school holiday is here, and it doesnt even feel like it. the only difference was the additional 2 hrs of slp which doesnt really make a difference t me since i hardly sleep.
wed- fyp in the morning, term break project( filming) in the noon
thurs- term break project( filming )
fri- term break project( filming
kinda hectic but oh well, we had fun doing the filming, all the NG-s REALLY crack us up big time.
im usually amazed by people who managed to remain friends with their ex-s.
i believe that its idealistic to think that ex-s can be friends. well, i mean it does depend on the level of the relationship. basically it goes like this:
the longer you are together, the closer you are and thus the stronger your love is.. which also mean the more doomed the after-breakup friendship is.
for me, its kind of hard to even look at the one you once loved, love someone else. despite the fact that you were the one who let the person go. its kind of ironic but it just doesnt feel good.
jess feels lonely at this moment. 7th june 08, 2.43am.
and she needs a tight warm hug=( |
| posted by Jessamine @ 12:53 PM |
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| Sunday, June 1, 2008 |
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wii or mp3??
ive been wanting the wii since forever, but my mp3 sucks big time. and i desperately need to do smth about it.
but i wan a wii too=(((((
OR MAYB I CAN SELL MY PSP (since i donte touch my psp anymore) and top up some more money to get the wii.
and for the mp3 i can just save? BUT BUT BUT I'VE BEEN TOO BUSY TO PLAY WITH WII NOW.
so mayb just mp3?
and regarding the mp3. im deciding between ipod nano(8gb), classic(80gb) or itouch(32gb).
god, i hate making decision. im bad at decision making, reason being me too fickled minded.
arughhh.. |
| posted by Jessamine @ 12:49 PM |
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